full image - Repost: Doubting my decision. (from Reddit.com, Doubting my decision.)
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Hi all, I’m not one to post on here and ask for advice but here I am. I’m due to start phase 1 soon, and recently I’ve been having second thoughts about it all, which has been keeping me up at night + making me on edge. For context, I’ve been in the mix waiting for this time since late 2023 where I initially applied for the Army, however changed to RAF. Last year, I did go to Halton however I left on day 01 before attesting. I left because it just didn’t feel like the right time for me - mentally I felt unprepared. I came out of that with great feelings of regret (as you can imagine), so I had a chat with my recruiter and here I am waiting for round 2. I’ve got a great support network, with people here for me no matter what I do which is handy. However, I’m up in arms about what I should do (I’m aware it’s solely down to me). I’m a massive family person and I can’t picture myself leaving home at 19 (having never done so before - not even any school trips🤣) and the thought of not seeing my partner sends me into a downward spiral. I would love to be a ‘think of the end goal’ type person, but I’m more of a of right now person, so I’m massively struggling with seeing the bigger picture. For some it’s really easy to say ‘it’s just 10 weeks’ but to me it’s much more than that. I don’t feel like my heart is in it anymore/my motivation has disappeared. I’m not requesting any particular advice but if anyone has anything to say I would really appreciate it - and be brutally honest if you think I’m overreacting here!🤞🏼
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