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Yesterday, I was heading from work on the train to my city to see a friend for food, drinks and the cinema. I felt a weird urge to get Snapchat again on the journey, so I did and my ex had posted to her story. The first image was her looking absolutely stunning which floored me, and the second was her out for drinks in the city I was going to.I was 12 days into NC and hadn't seen her in person in nearly a month. I panicked thinking I'd run into her and was noticeably nervous when I met my friend. We had a few drinks, and in a moment of weakness, I responded with "👀" to the image of her - silly I know.She laughs and asks if I'm out that night (St Patrick's) and continues to say she's a bit drunk, how she's doing etc. She says her life is in a bit of a shambles and reveals that her Mum has been diagnosed with breast cancer, it's bad and she's having chemo soon.We continue talking and she admits that she cares about me a lot, thinks about me still and has no bad feelings. She was in two minds about messaging me to tell me about her Mum but thought not to burden me as she assumes I'm having some fun new life doing well. Little does she know, I've really been suffering too, but I didn't tell her this.I come out of the cinema and ask if she's still in town. She says she is and we meet, walk and talk for 5 minutes and hug really tightly after. I kiss her on the cheek and we hug again and she looks me in the eye and tells me life's really difficult for her at the moment and she wants to see me to talk about everything. We part ways (she's with her friends who are a bit confused about me interacting with her) and continue to message whilst I'm walking home.During this she says it was nice seeing me, the hug was really needed and we should meet for coffee on Sunday as she's local for plans that evening anyway. She tells me she thinks my tattoo is nice, it looks like I'm doing well and gets nostalgic about a few things from when we were together. She also tells me she still has that voucher I made her for valentine's (it was after she dumped me, and I made it on Photoshop saying it's valid for 1x catch up, 1x dance together and 0x drama) which I thought was interesting.She gets home, tells me she's back safely and sends me a photo of herself looking beautiful with it too.Today starts and we swap silly things on Snapchat before she goes on her night shift. We might talk a tiny bit over the weekend but I want to save the bulk for Sunday. On Sunday I'll turn up looking, smelling and feeling good and be an emotionally stable and polished version of myself for her to witness.I'd love reconciliation but at a really slow pace. I don't want to invalidate the pain of the break-up I've endured over the last few months as the dumpee. I love her parents and family and the thought of her struggling with this at 25 is honestly heartbreaking.Perhaps she's realised the grass isn't greener and she lost someone supportive just before something happened where she needed support the most. She said her friends are a great support network but just don't "get it" and just tell her to keep her head down etc. I personally think this is the end of the relief stage as her ego has calmed right down and she's exposed vulnerability instead of making out everything was going amazingly like originally.I don't know what happens next and it's a difficult situation. Any advice would really mean a lot, thank you.
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